It is 1:30 am on a Saturday night and I can't sleep so I get up to see if we are getting any of the snow they were predicting. To my surprise our front yard is already covered in a beautiful blanket of fresh snow. That is one of my favorite things of all time is to see the ground covered in freshly fallen snow that is untouched and so clean.
So has a am watching the snow fall I figured I would look up bible verses to see what the bible said about snow. I Google bible verses about snow. The first verse that comes up is Psalm 51:7. I open my bible and read the verse and can't believe what I read. Psalm 51:7- "Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean, wash me and I will be whiter than snow." Now according to everything I read this was David talking to God after he had been caught in a sin. Nothing big about that except for the mention of hyssop.
For over 3 weeks now that word has been brought to my attention in many different ways. First a friend posted she had read about it in her morning bible study and had looked into what it was.Hyssop I have found out is a plant used in cleansing rituals in biblical times. That exact same day Bailee's Sunday school teacher gave them their new memory verse that mentioned hyssop. Then 2 weeks later we have bunko and I won a prize, and I open the prize and it is a candle that is scented like hyssop. Then tonight 3 days after bunko I look up bible verses that had to do with snow and here is the word hyssop.
So of course I am now up at 2:30 in the morning researching and reading about hyssop. I have been in what I call a "Momma funk lately." Where I have just been so stuck in a routine and been such a debbie downer lately I feel like God is saying wake up!! Cleanse your heart and mind of all things negative open your eyes and enjoy your daily blessings. I am so stuck in my daily routine of how things are supposed to go I have not enjoyed the small things in life. My heart has been so full of ugliness and always finding the bad in everything instead of being open and looking for the good in all.
Have you ever just had that moment that you realize what in the heck have you been doing? I look back over the past few months and think; now did I celebrate that special moment with my kid enough, did I let my kids know how much it meant for me to see them even doing something so small as sharing a toy, and did I let Kurt know how blessed I am to have him in my life. Heck, I know I have not been the daughter that I know Christ wants me to be. How can I go into "Momma Funk" over a few small bad things happening when I have a Father that's Son was hung on a cross and died for me. What would have happened to us if God went into a "Father funk?" We are blessed more than we ever deserve here in our Earthly lives and we take so much for granted.
So tonight I burn my hyssop candle to cleanse my heart and mind of all my "Momma Funk" actions and praise God and thank him for the blessings in my life. I also pray and ask him to give me the strength I need to get out of this funk. What makes us here on Earth think that our problems are to big for our God that created the very ground we walk on? Sometimes we just don't give him enough credit.
